Tuesday, April 06, 2010

People like me


People like me are scarce under the sun
We thrive on the lost art of good clean fun
We'll never be done when we start to talk
We can while away and evening on a lazy walk
We're not boring, oh not at all
We can keep you interested, winter or fall
People like me, we love to entertain
Although, admittedly we are insane
We fish out a topic and start a debate
We're ready made clowns, yes it's our fate
People like me are, ahem, refine
People like me are hard to find
We love romance stories, the cheesy ones
We're subtly sarcastic, talking in puns
We love to joke around, people like me
We always qualify as excellent company
People like me, we could land you in jail
And try to take you out without posting a bail
People like me, we're smart, fun and kind
Our type on Earth has vastly declined
We loves to make chaos and make it right again
Some people simply call us a pain
Oh those silly people, what do they know
They're simply stupid, inefficient, slow
People like me, we have mothers who tell
"Child, one day, you will surely go to hell"
People like me are extremely rare
People like me, we need good care
We are not threatned by silly little things
We face it with pride, whatever the future brings
We hold our chins up with graceful dignity
Oh wouldn't you love to be a person like me?


 








"I ain't gonna do a thing that you like
I'm fine and dandy with the me inside"
- Weezer, Pork and Beans

Musing


I will always be yours.
Always.
Just hug me and don't let go.
I want to hold on to you and break down into the tears that I have been keeping
Just keep your hands around me and don't let go.
Please don't, I need someone to hold on to.
Just let me cry my tears onto your shoulder.
I want to hear your heart beat as proof that I can hold onto you.
Just stroke my head and let me cry.
Hold me in your arms, don't let me go.
I'm helpless.
I'm confused.
I'm lost.
Comfort me, just comfort me.
Say everything is okay when I know its not, because just to hear you say that is amazing
Call me from your nick names
Tell me stories.
I need someone to hold on to.
Kiss my forehead.
Wipe my tears and let me cry again.
Listen to me as I talk about Mom and Dad.
Kiss me.
Kiss me as I cry.
Kiss me when I push you away.
Hold me close to you and hug me.
I'm yours to keep.
Kiss me when I wont let you.
Stroke my hair and kiss me again.
Hold me tightly, don't let me go.
I'm scared, don't let go.
Lace my fingers with your warm ones.
Listen to my heart beat and let me stroke your head.
Hold my hand and never let go.
Tell me that you love me.
Tell me that I'm your flighty little nutcase
I need someone to hold on to.
Tell me that you love me over again.
Say it to me over and over again.
Say that you love me till I break down and cry.
Say that you love me till I kiss you back.
Tell me that you love me till I say I love you back.
Kiss me.
Tell me that you love me.

Monday, April 05, 2010

O


O, is that your nose running?
Here, I caught it

O, is that the sound of your heart drumming?
Here, I tamed it

O, is that your tummy aching?
Here, I'll soothe it

O, is that your hand shaking?
Here, I'll relax it

O, is that your throat so sore?
Here, I'll heal it

O, is that you asking for more?
Well there's, no need to ask...
When you have me at hand (and at heart)...

Sunday, April 04, 2010

Shades.


A multifaceted emerald?

It has no name.. just a glow.

The beautiful shades in a whirl.

A calm quiet blue, a slight green tinge

Light, soft, ever fading into moonlight

Like mist on a forest fringe

Catching the lights with flecks of gold

Like drops of happiness and warmth

Like the face of a young girl bold

The aqua of a rainy morning glow

Fresh, crisp, and so new

Shades changing, shining slow

The browns of autumn leaves fall

Ocher, amber, orange and red

The colours of a lovers call

The green of new leaves of a canopy ahead

Lustrous spring! Oh burning bright

All the shades of brown on his head

The sage green of the ribbon in her hair

The green of a fresh apple from a tree

The olive of her dress

The sapphire of the ocean

The warm, inky azure of the skies

The green in his eyes.

The colors of his eyes.

Those eyes.







"And every breath we drew was Hallelujah"- Leonard Cohen

A Lil' Mean


Your eyes are gray, so blue so green
A facet of colors I see
But you HAVE to argue with me
You're so stubborn. A lil mean.
And I like your hair.
Cause it makes me stare
But you're just a little mean.
Shut up or I'll seduce you
And such BAD thing's I'll do
Cos I'm just a lil mean
But I admit it
That I'm evil.. A BIT!
But you don't. Cause you're mean

We like pecans and I like beans
I'll handcuff you to the bed
Tug the hair on your head
Cos I think I like being mean
I'll make you say my name
Just watch me, and you're to blame
For every horny lil dream
Yes you are handsome
But you're being a dumb dumb
But its better than being mean.
I don't feel very decent
I feel like a penguin for some reason
Its you. It's you being mean

You Jade me, and you make me dream
With the way you nuzzle my neck
I try to keep my self in check
But you have to go and be a lil mean
And make me say your name
Yeah I know it sounds lame
But you know we're an awesome team
Anubis and pecan butter
Cupcakes and give me weird flutters
And you don't really like whipped cream
We'll go to The Gully and be bad
And I'll give you the best time you had
Cause you know I'm a lil mean
And we're both just a lil mean.


Friday, April 02, 2010

You whore.


Come.. and go
That's what you do.
He's a pawn of your game
It's always the same
You're talented, you know how to woo

Play mind games all day
It's what you like.
Confuse him, berate him
I feel sorry he's so dim
But I was too, until your strike

Go on your knees
I know you are skilled
He must be loving it
Oh maybe you're using your tits
To have your carnality fulfilled

Moan his name
It's his favorite sound
During your bed time
I know it used to be mine
When it was me, not him, around.

So tell me, is he
Another one night stand?
Maybe you want him for two days?
Or just until your lust abates?
But I know you don't give a damn.

I pity the fool
You are fucking right now
He must be so thrilled
Because you love to get drilled
And then, you'll break the vow

Do you stroke his hair
Like you used to do to mine
He must moan at your touch
Does his hands claw and clutch
At your marvelous deceptive design?

My heart beat used to race
To a degree of near death
Does it happen to him too?
Do you get deja vu?
When it reminds you of me when he draws breath?

Do you still smile innocently
And tease him like you did
To me, when it was us?
Do you still make a fuss
And drive him as well, wild?

I have never regretted
Anything more
Than wasting my time
Thinking you are mine
When you slammed the door

I do not care
You're a cold hearted bitch
That's all I have to say
Because of the way
You dumped me into a ditch

I hope he continues
To fuck you good
Because that's all you want
I'll remain nonchalant
While you claim to be misunderstood

I pity him sometimes
But I pity you more
For all what you have done
While you have your fun
By tomorrow you'll be gone for sure

Was it your fake sob stories
Or your well contrived lies
That made him fall for you?
Does he believe you'll stay true?
Does he see the wench you are in your eyes?

You do what you do
Kick him also to the floor
Like a burnt end of a ciggarette
But my only, sad regret
Is that I ever loved a whore







Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Sexual Remembrance


How did it feel?
Did it feel real 
When you stood with her
And held her hands?

What did she say?
As the two of you lay?
On her white bed
Did it feel planned?

What did you think?
Did she fall for your winks?
Was her hair silky?
Was her skin lush?

When you kissed her deep
Did her heart leap?
Like it happened to me?
Did her cheeks flush?

Was your voice that sexy rasp?
When you popped her bra clasp?
And nibbled at the melons
That she bore?

Hickeys did you leave?
What did others percieve?
When they saw her clothes
Scattered in the corridor

And did you look down
With your cute half frown?
As she obediently went
On her knees

Was it fire and flame?
Did it feel the same?
Did her mouth work magic?
Did she tease?

Was it a purr
When you spanked her
That you heard coming
From her throat

I bet she felt lost
When you were her boss
I bet she struggled
To stay afloat

Was it pure lust?
When you did thrust
Into her, how loud
Did she moan?

Was her orgasm strong
Did it last long?
Did your conscience stir
When she groaned?

When you tied her to the bed
Were her lips red?
As mine, when you did
The same to me?

Did she beg for mercy
Amongst your cursing
Tell me, how obedient
Really was she?

Did she say your name?
Like me, while she came?
Was she convinced that
You would stick around?

How was her reception?
To your masterly deception?
She did she go on fours
On the ground?

And when the sun shone
Did she find herself alone?
And your side of the bed
Empty and cold?

After such a fuck
Did you just chuck
Her to a corner 
Of your memory hold?

You loved my wit
But in truth it was my tits
So tell me now
How did it feel?

After you fucked her
Did you remember
That you did the
Same to me?








Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Midnight Sex


Her panties lie innocently on the floor
Right next to where his vest is a pool
A ray of light through the half open door
A bedside carpet made of wool
His belt hangs sadly, silver buckle gleaming
From where she took it off and threw
It dangles from a chair; clinking, redeeming
As a portrait of a man watches them in rue
Her red high heels, pointy wicked heels
Grin from where they lie near the bed
Moonlight bathes the bed in slivers and peels
Shining on her raven-locked head
His shirt lies rumpled, sad and forgotten
Thrown on to a floor cushion sitting by
For this was their night of hope begotten
The room resonates with his ecstatic sigh
Her bra holds on to dear life
As it swings on a polished bed post
Lacey and feminine, it seems to connive
White and frilly; a disembodied ghost
His trousers on a settee in the corner of the room
Wonder how they got to be there
The soft aroma of her lingering perfume
Diffuses through the calm night air
Smiling up at the ceiling, his shoes
Are glad to be rid of his feet
The carpet on the floor merely looks amused
As the bed shakes in passion and heat
The night is warm, the room is burning
An inferno as it duly ignites
The once neat sheets are jumbled and churning
Through the scorching midsummer night
Clothes and possessions scattered all around
Watch silently as the fire catches on
Consuming heat and love, the sound
From the bed on which they lie upon
The night is young, and so are they
The scattered clothes will serve as proof
As the passion flares til the break of day
The shoes and the panties watch aloof















Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Spectrum: Converse of Colour & Conversation



He, a grown young man of twenty, looked intently at her.  She, the girl of seventeen stood on the front porch of her house. Not quite a woman, but more than a girl.  She was dressed simply in black low rise shorts, a body hugging blue motif t-shirt and on her feet were a pair of bright red Converse All Stars.  When he saw her shoes, he smiled and looked down at his own his shoes. On his feet was a pair of black Converse. He raised his head and looked back at her. Her gorgeous long black hair fell in waves over her shoulders and under the yellow light of the porch lamp, she had a mystical radiance. His traveled up and down along her long legs, her perfectly curvy hips and paused at her neck; where a white-gold necklace glittered, nestled comfortably on the hollow of her throat. He held his hand out to her and she gracefully accepted his large warm hand in hers. 
They walked along the moonlit road, the leaves of trees rustling softly in the warm gusts of winds while fallen leaves blew across the ground as if dancing. Together they walked, hand in hand, their converse clad feet moving at the same pace. Her soft blue t-shirt clung to her body in perfect curves and the laughing wind playfully tugged at the soft strands of her long, black hair. It glistened under the bluish light on the moon. Occasionally, they nudged each other as they walked and he was warm against her. All was silence because mere words would not satisfy what they were feeling. Their interlaced fingers symbolised more than just a connection. The leaf strewn road stretched far and they walked slowly. He was at ease. The tensions that ran high earlier during the day seemed so far and so long ago now. He stole a glance at her. It was always like this ever since they met. He always put her at ease. He remembered their first meeting.
She was seated along with several other hopefuls to try out for the upcoming school drama production of the year. She loved to be on stage because she loved the rush of it all and the pure pleasure of getting a role to become your second nature. She was seated, nervous, sweaty palms and furrowed brow. He walked in, his bag slung casually over his broad left shoulder with the unmistakable air of a popular school student. He had his English book report in his hand and he groaned when he saw the line of people seated for auditions. This would be mean he would have to wait till all the auditions were over to hand in his book report to the teacher. Employing some of the choicest of swear words mentally, he sat down next to her, clearly frustrated and annoyed.
After a while, he began to get restless and bored. He tried re-reading his book  report, but that reminded him he did a bad job anyway so he started to observe the girl sitting next to him. Her head was dipped down and she was reading something. She was dressed in black skinny jeans and a loose fitting white tank top. He could see her yellow bra straps clinging on to her shoulders and he was dearly longing to snap them, as he would have done to other girls. But something stopped him. She adjusted her poistion and crossed her legs and she saw that on her feet were a pair of dark blue Converse.  He looked down at his feet to see his own pair of dark blue Converse and a voice in his head admitted that it was a strange situation. They were wearing the same shoes. She had long black hair that sprang from her head in perfect waves. The hair was falling over the left side of her face like a long black curtain and she had tucked the hair on the right side of her face behind her ear. 
When he saw her face, he saw that she wasn't striking as some girls he knew. She wasn't what he would call hot.  After a while though, he could see that some of her features when taken separately, were quite perfect. She had high cheekbones and tanned, glowing skin. Her dark, sooty lashes were long and she had a subtle hint of a dimple. He then noticed that she was restless and made up his mind to ask her what was wrong. 
"Hey are you okay?" he asked her.
She turned to look at him, her eyes full of surprise. "Hey.. umm.. yeah.. Just kind of nervous" she replied with a small smile.
"But why? I mean if you're confident and if you know you want to do this.." his voice trailed off.
"I know I want to do this.. but I don't know. I really badly want to get in" she said worriedly.
"Okay.. Tell me why. Tell me why you like drama" he inquired.
She smiled and suddenly she seemed to relax. "Oh I love being on stage! It's like.. a canvas. And it's up to the actor to splash paint and turn it into a work of art. His or her masterpiece. I love you connect with a role and then you become the role in your acting. On stage you tend to think of what is going through your role's mind in the situation, how would your role react. And the rush of it all! It's so magical! The stage is a page to let go of all your inhibitions and fly. It's literally like flying. You let lose of all your insecurities and thoughts as to what others might be think and you completely let go and you lose yourself in your character. And more than that, I am so happy when I am on stage, I feel like I can do anything. I don't feel scared" she said. "I should stop talking now" she added and he smiled.
"You just stated that you don't feel scared. So why be nervous? It's like you said isn't it? Be your role. I'm sure you'll get in.." he replied. 
"I hope-" she began to say, but her sentence was cut off in mid sentence when a voice called her name.
"Oh I have to go!" she said, standing up and dropping all her books to the floor. "Oh no!" she cried. 
"I'll help" he said, picking up her books for her. They both stood up together and when he handed her the books, he looked in her eyes and he had a funny notion. He gulped. 
"Thank you so much" she said, walking away.
I hope I see you around he thought, watching her walk away from him.
He was brought back to earth when she squeezed his hand and they both sat down on a familiar driveway of a well known road. She rested her head against him, on his strong shoulder. Her red Converse laces were tangled with his black ones. He put his arm around her and kissed the top of her sweet smelling head, burying his face in her apple scented tresses. Her dark brown eyes found his deep hazel ones and they held the gaze, their laces tangled up and they hearts and lives tangled up around each other.  His large warm hand found the line of her jaw and he stroked it, admiring her simple beauty. His hand traveled down to her delicate neck and there he felt her heart beat thrumming against his finger. Suddenly his head was filled with a memorable song. 
You're my survival, you're my living proof that my love is alive, not dead.
Just she leaned in to meet his lips with hers, the first drops of seasonal rain hit them and the kiss was forgotten for the moment. They both loved the rain. He stood up, dragging her up with him and they walked to the middle of the lonely leaf strewn street. As they held hands facing each other and looked up to the sky, the heavens broke and the rain came down, pelting gently down their faces. He held her to him and his arms locked around her waist. He kissed her gently and then slightly more urgently and she was honey and strawberries as she melted against him, into her, the spark that ignited turning into fire and seeping through them like glorious, hot molten lava. She tasted of honey and strawberry and it was intermingled with the taste of the raindrops fallling on them. 
The kiss broke apart and he rested his chin on the top of her head, holding her to him. Slowly, they began to sway.  He was dancing in the rain with her. His hand curled in her damp, fragrant hair as their Converse sloshed, drinking up the rain water. The flowers turned their brightly colored heads to the oncoming rain and bathed in the rain. They swayed in place, their damp clothes clinging on to their skin, but they were not cold. He held her as they swayed in time, an eternal melody in their hearts as the rain continued to pour.
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Roofies III: Roofrandom


So here I am, sitting on the roof again. I guess this is turning out to by kind of like my comfort paradise? Is there such a thing called a comfort paradise anyway? Because a place can be paradise, but that doesn't necessarily mean it's a place of comfort is it?

Okay fine, all these sexy hotels down south and in Udawalawe and stuff, you know, the hotels with the luxurious jacuzzi pools that massage your butt and the spas that give you dead-to-world-sleep massages? I mean you call those paradise and they certainly are comfortable but they aren't comfort if you know what I mean. Does that make any sense?

Anyway. Here I am on the roof, with my usual munchie. Well. Okay, it's isn't mango pickle or mango chutney. It is actually ambarella. Yeah ambarella. And NO, I am NOT eating it raw (blehh) because I hate it raw, but when my mother makes Ambarella curry, I simply CANNOT (the emphasis being on not) resist the allure of it. Okay so yeah, I stole a container full of Ambarella curry and I am seated here, eating it.

There's a really nice soft breeze circling the vicinity of my house by the way. It surprises me cause the past few days it has been so effing hot and I woke up halfway through the night and slept very restlessly afterward because I was sweating like a pig.

And what's up with that? About the sweating like a pig thing? Do pigs sweat? I guess they do have cooling mechanisms like humans since they are mammals too.. but I guess it's more of releasing heat? But then all mammals should be able do that right? All mammals are exothermic? So if all mammals are exothermic, why do we use the term "sweating like a pig?" Isn't that a subjective term? I mean, if pigs were able to effectively communicate with humans, we might even have court cases for using that term. Like, why can't we say "sweat like a bat" or "sweat like a cat" or something? They're mammals too? Although we can't say "sweat like a crocodile because crocs are reptilians. And talking about the pigs being civilized; there pigs who in comparison to certain humans are much more well behaved and civilized. Seriously, humans should be sub-classified under the titles civilized, somewhat civilized and complete animal.

I was thinking about G-strings earlier. They're a real pain in the butt (no pun intended). Yeah so guys say they're sexy and yadda yadda but seriously, I feel SO naked when I wear them and it's really uncomfortable at times, specially the lace ones. The lace ones tend to roll up between your butt cheeks and it becomes really uncomfortable then. Sometime I really feel like "screw the effing panty lines, comfort over style for me" but then in some cases, like in official stuff, I guess you have no choice?

MUN is this weekend. I am seriously surprised at myself because I actually spoke and entertained Points of Information. Not that I'm terrified of public speaking or whatever, but it's still kinda... y' know.. AND OMG! Edward Cullen is in my committee!
Yes! Edward Cullen!

Okay let me explain.

I'm not one of those Twilight addicted fucktards okay? I hate the book. I honestly do. I hate the movies even more. Seriously, Twilight comes NO-fucking-where close to Harry Potter or Lord of The Rings. Anyway. So I read Twilight (obviously I have to read it to decide whether I like it DUH) and it's like whenever you read a book with fictional characters in it, you have your own vision-slash-idea-slash-picture as to what each character looks like right? Like in your mind's eye, you have a personal picture (and I did NOT mean that in a perverted sense). Well, there's this guy, the first time I saw him, the words Edward Cullen flashed across my mind in big, bold PURPLE block capitals. And I tell you, he is VERY easy on the eyes.. and he has a marvellous behind..mmmmm.

Ahem. Anyway. 

So yeah.. that's what's been happening lately. Other than that, some male homophobic drama which I do not wish to relate because it is far too tiresome. Ah males! How you feminine you are! 

Currently I am lusting after a pair of Green shoes I saw at Mondy. They're SO gorgeous, made out if this delicate olive Green satiny material with a one-inch heel and a buckle ankle back strap. It's open to and it has these cute criss cross arrangement of straps over the toes. It's GORGEOUS. Gosh. I want it so bad.

Life goes on... here I sit and I eat my ambarella. Akki came and she went back and I really miss her, more than I missed her last time. Over the holidays we got really really close and I shared a lot with her. I realised that even though in writing I am emotional, in real life I hardly let people see me cry and stuff. I have Woman of Steel facade. But then when it's nighttime and I'm lonely I gush out my tears like the freaking Niagara. Hmm.

I guess this is a more of a serious note that rest because I am coming to realise that fact that I'm leaving school in May. Sigh, where did all that time go? I'll miss my friends SO much! Specially Thami and Rush. Theja I hardly see so it's all right. I really am looking forward to uni because I looked at the coursework and it really seemed interesting. But I'll really miss everything about this microscopic, hot, judgmental island which I call home. 

I feel lucky. Yeah. I have the BEST best friend anyone could ever have. Theja is the most awesomest person (is awesomest a word? =/ ). It's like, I've been having all these crappy problems and the moment I talk to him, everything seems fine, even for those few minutes and I forget everything and he cracks me up so much. I rrally miss the guy though, I haven't seen him so long. And Thami. Oh gosh she's been an angel the past few days when the going got tough. I really can't.. well, I don't know what to think (maybe because my mouth is having orgasms because of the ambarella I'm eating) but yeah.. *speechless*

Damn. I love them both. ♥


"Find out games you don't wanna play
You are, the only one that needs to know
I'll keep you my dirty little secret"
- All American Rejects